I REALLY like being alone. There, I said it. Being alone might seem dark and “depressing” to most people but to me, it means just one thing: freedom. Freedom to do whatever the hell I want, whenever I want. I make my own decisions. I only have to pay for myself. I don’t have to worry about the opinions of others. And I love it. But some days, I gotta admit, it really sucks. It can get stale on certain days. I definitely do get lonely, and sometimes, I just want to be able to talk to someone. It’s hard, but I deal with that on a regular basis. I know how to handle that, as difficult as it is. But opening up to other people, compromising with them, and interacting with other people — that is hard.
I mean, I keep getting invited to go places, or see people and stuff, but I just can’t, for whatever reason. My body won’t allow me to do any of those things. When I do convince myself to go out, I end up just spending most of the time thinking about being home again to enjoy some solitude. That’s pretty much how it goes for me. I’m that person that goes “man, I wish someone would hang out with me”. Then someone offers to hang out with me, we do, and the second we get together I’m like “nah, I want to go home.” I truly am just THAT pathetic.
Very rarely in my life have I felt the need to seek out the company of others, and this has sort’ve been a thing ever since I was little. I have always been very comfortable in the company of myself. In elementary and high-school I really didn’t talk much, just because I didn’t feel the need to. And this probably sounds elitist as hell, like, *insert posh voice* “I don’t need to talk to other people. I’m already so great. I’m high and mighty.” That’s not what it is. Everything just clicks together when I’m with myself. I’ve just sort of always been that way and in some cases, it’s a trait that I value because I think independence is a really important thing. It’s something that you need in order to survive in the world. Being able to appreciate yourself and your thoughts and what you believe in, is one of the most important things you can work on.
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.”
– Steve Jobs
To live, you gotta trust yourself. Trust your ability. Trust your power. At the end of the day, all you have is yourself anyway, so I think it is extremely important to be able to handle things on your own. I think there’s nothing wrong with being alone and being happy about it. My mindset may change in a few years though. I say, be open to change. The important thing here is that you do you and you’re happy about it.
Leaving you with this cool video.
It really hit home for me.